It's decided..

So yeah... it's decided that I'm going to take the April Intake

there were people who did support me, but there were people who did not support me :S

But hell yeah, i know what i want. and i know what i want to do. it's my decision.

Many people were asking, "sar lo mau ngapain selama 6 bulan?"
they were like intimidating me with really hard question, but Thank God, i can handle it

for 6 months, i will:
1. take french lesson -- this is my dream, really, since i watched eiffel i'm in love, i really want to take a french lesson :)
2. finish my violin lesson -- I REALLY MISS MY VIOLIN LESSON, i miss mbak nuri. and somehow im afraid that i don't finish the lesson, that i will forget how to play my violin -__-
3. take piano lesson -- AAAAA I MISS PLAYING PIANO IN THE RIGHT WAY. i've stopped piano lesson since i was in sec 1. now i REALLY MISS IT!
4. work in RA -- at first, mr manish were offering me job as the lecturer assistant, but i'm afraid that he will change his mind. He was talking to me (via bbm) like 2 weeks ago and said that i have to reconsider my decision about going to take the april intake, because he said that KAPLAN singapore will not help them like what they did to us before. Kaplan Singapore was disappointed after what they have done for us to take the September Intake. okay. we are wrong because we don't know what we want to do at first. BUT, this wont happen if "statistics situation" happened. RA was the one who chose the teacher, and the whole class (except Joshua) failed statistics. If it wasn't because of the teacher, we wont failed. So mr manish, you can't put all the blame on us. You took a part on why we want to go to the april Intake.

I have made up my mind of going to April Intake. It's my decision, it's my life (tai banget bahasanya)

september or april intake?

So here are my parent's respond about me thinking to take the april intake..

Mom: (via SMS)
mama bingung dek, lemess, krn prubahan bgitu drastis, td malm km begitu antusias mau terus kuliah,trus mama seharian ke band dn money changer, kalo kamu takut ngadepin plajaran
mama sedih, tmn2 kamu juga yg skolah d indo, sdng berjuang Uan,
6 bln kamu dirumah ato kursus, akan kmn?
kalo kamu sedih mama kan bisa nengok ke sana, satu bulan sekali
kamu bisa pulang juga, to 6 bulan gak sekkolah,
sudah terlalu banyak contoh dek, justru umur kamu maih muda di gunakan baik2
kalo banyak yg ga bisa, pasti tidak ada program sekolah spt ini,
knp master2 juga di umur muda sdh jadi, mmereka juga bukan briliant
mama juga gak berharap kamu dpt A
kalo kamu bisa ikutin pelajaran, dan pass saja baik buat kamu
kita tidak pernah mematok kamu musti jd juara dan jagoan
tp kamu jadi seseorang..

Mom (Via Email):
Ini yang bikin mama lemes karena mama seneng kamu passed the exam, kamu dapat respond dari james, dan kamu juga segera ingin mendaftar, jangan sampe ketinggalan dari temen yang lain, tapi karena kamu takut menghadapi yang tidak perlu kamu takut, dan kamu terlalu mendengar comment orang lain, kamu tidak berani commitment, kegagalan dimana saja ada, mama saja sudah setua inipun ada failed, tapi kita punya Tuhan Yesus yang tidak akan membiarkan kita sendiri, dia tidak berjanji tidak ada kegagalan, tapi dia berjanji bersama kamu terus sampai kamu selesai,

Dad (via bbm):
kamu berdoa aja dulu sayang.. gak usah dipaksain.. kalau kamu memutuskan terus papa dukung kalo mau ambil april juga papa dukung ra.. rasanya sih mama juga pasti dkung ra kamu maunya apa
kalau kamu mau pindah dari situ ketempat yang enakan, papa juga dukung de.. papa gak mau anak papa menderita.. dan gak enjoy sama sekolahnya.. kamu maunya apa ya papa pasti dukung kamu sayang
jangan nangis dong sayang, anak papa harus tegar, itulah hidp dan sekola sayang, belom tentu semuanya enak, tapi kam bisa belajar dan nanti kalau kamu sudah dewasa kamu bisa jalanin hidp ini ra.. dan jangan berhenti percaya dan berdoa
karena hanya jesus yang bisa nolong kamu.. papa sama mama hanya bisa mengantar kamu dewasa aja..
kalau kamu kesepian, baca alkitab dan berdoa ya sayang
jangan berpikiran kalau kamu ambil april itu mengecewakan papa sama mama.. kamu tidak boleh punya pikiran itu.. ya sayang

:S

KAPLANERS!!!

oh nooo :(

everybody is leaving :(

tata is leaving tomorrow, then stacey inez and joshua are leaving on the 10th of October :(

ahhhh, it has been 1.5 years that we're together..

and we were never separated for a long time :(

so this might be the longest time that all of us will be separated :"""""""( oh nooooooo

they have been one of the greatest people that i have met in my life.

even though we had so many conflicts in our friendship, but every fight, every conflict, made us closer

we laughed, we cried, we spent time EVERYDAY.

and i can't imagine, what my life would be without them :(

ahhh, i love you people.. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!

iyenk.marian.joshua.tata.ivan.stacey.inez.beb. :"(

smile :")

:"(

*hearts*>

KAPLANERS !!!!!

Help me God :(

Dear God,

please listen to my prayer :) I got a very big decision to be made.. whether i have to join the September Intake or April Intake for my University :(

Somehow i really want to be in September Intake, because..well.. first.. its faster.

But in some way i really want to join April Intake, maybe because i'm gonna be alone in the class if i join September Intake, as Joshua inez and stacey aren't joining it :( so yeah..

Help me God :( please please be with me.. this is a really big decision in my life...

Amen..

WEDNESDAY, come faster!

I REALLY CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO JAKARTA

i miss my family REALLYYY BAD!

SO SO PLEASEE WEDNESDAY, come fasterr!!

oh well...

but my holiday will not be really "that" fun

cause i have tons of works to be done.

on the 20th- i have SSPDP presentation -__- *please let my team get the presentation on the 21st or the 22nd

24th- SSPDP EXAM! --> DIE DIE

27th- BUSINESS STATISTICS EXAM ; SSPDP ASSIGNMENT SUBMISSION ; DEGREE ORIENTATION! --> triple DIE DIE DIE

oh God help me :(

Busy Busy Busy

Last week was CRAZY!

I really did A LOT of things last week

Monday to Thursday, i've got a WHOLE CLASS. which started at 10 pm and ended at 5 pm.

kalo kata kevin: "ONE WORD, CAPEK"

On Monday and Tuesday, i've got 3 classes in one day. And in the end i have to choose 2 subjects. So i chose International Finance and Statistics. This clash keeps happening until thursday :(

BUT THEN, on Friday, i went home to Jakarta, to attend Uda Ucok's wedding. It was Fun! But the dress was.... well... Thank God i didn't have to wear that clown skirt!! If I did, well i promised myself NOT TO TAKE ANY PICTURE!

It was fun, but yet, it was REALLY TIRING. The event started at 1pm and ended at 7 pm.. can you imagine? I thanked God, cause the place was not too hot :)

I came back to Singapore on Sunday evening. And after that i have to finish my assignment which due on the next day. Well, at that day, i have finished like.. 98% of the assignment, so.. yeah..

Then i have to prepare for the INTERNATIONAL FINANCE EXAM, on wednesday.

Thank God it's all OVER! i can enjoy the rest of my LEBARAN holiday in Singapore!

Gonna go shopping with Marian on Friday 'til Sunday haha :D

I really hope everything went well!

I CAN DO IT!

Seriously my schedule is killing me..

This month's schedule is really really really killing me slowly..

I got 3 modules to be done!

1. International Finance --> OH WELL this is the toughest module (seriously). I really need to PUSH my brain to understand the concepts :( OH GOD HELP ME

2. SSPDP --> this is like a personality class. well when i entered the class the lecturer just told me to do a bunch of questions which then help me to know about my personality. Seriously, sometimes i feel REALLY lazy to go to the class, but the DAMN ATTENDANCE forced me to!

3. BUSINESS STATISTICS --> THIS A RE-MODULE, damn mr c****** made the whole class FAILED on the exam, and the only thing that she said was "kalian sih pada bandel2"..

LIKE... HELLOOOO MS! if this wasn't because of the you, we wouldn't have to REPEAT the module for the second time! argghh

okaaay, the college life is getting harder and harder..

and i'm having a second thought on continuing the degree this September!

oh well, if i can't handle my diploma, how will i handle my degree? the lecturer always said that DEGREE IS TOUGH!

and i don't thing the scores that i got know is really reflecting on me going to continue the degree this September.

OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

i have sacrificed my sleep :(

uhhhhh, CHEER UP SARA YOU CAN DO IT!

OHHHHH one thing that excites me is... IM GOING BACK TO JAKARTA THIS FRIDAY!

oh okee well but i have SO many things to be done!

and i have to study also!

YOU CAN DO IT SARA!